Zahariah yaw`

I was really scared yesterday night. It was a sudden feeling and it was fear that I felt. I almost cried and woke  my mom up  for comfort and assurance. I lie quietly on my bed waiting for the his presence to finally fill the quiet house. I really had the wildest thoughts of why he hadn’t reach home yet. It was later than usual. But as soon as my eyes were about to close for the night, I heard the door and felt like the safest girl in the world before I was brought into my dream.

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And everyone, please support by not buying animal base products”

Time past so fast and here we are witnessing the end of Ramadhan and welcoming the month of Syawal. To tell you the truth, I was really disappointed in myself. Many things happened during Ramadhan but the way I handle it wasn’t how I knew I was supposed to overcome the things that I went through. I was too preoccupied with how things should be like and didn’t realised that Allah is bringing me closer to finding back my true self.

I admit, I was really a mess. In silence, I couldn’t control my emotions and really wished it was just a dream. However, everything changed on the eve of Hari Raya. It suddenly struck me, I wasted my chance of getting closer to Allah on the very holy month of Ramadhan.  Allah, wanted me to be strong, to have courage to go through everything and most importantly, learning to accept things sincerely. Listening to Takbir on the eve of Hari Raya really brought me to tears. I couldn’t turn back the time anymore. I really wasted my chance.

But now, I’ve learn to accept things as they are. Everything happens for a reason and I know Allah will always give me the strength and courage to overcome anything if I’m willing to try. Right now, I really feel happy in and out. My mind feels so much lighter and I couldn’t be happier to have the opportunity to celebrate Hari Raya with my beloved family by my side.

Insyaallah, everything will be fine.

Selamat Hari Raya ♥

“I had fallen for a guy I can never have. I know how we felt, but our situation/circumstance makes it difficult for us to be together. This really kill me deep inside. Every night, things seem to be different knowing what I fear most really happened. It wasn’t easy hiding how it really feels inside. The harder I tried, the painful it gets. I’m a mess; I apologize”

10342.) We have known and talked to each other for so long.

Sometimes I feel thankful that I know someone like you.
Sometimes I feel proud of you and what you have done.
Sometimes I feel that we both care for each other.
Sometimes I feel as if we are not just friends.
Sometimes I feel as if maybe you are the one. Sometimes I feel like you and I are just really good friends and it should be kept that way.

At other times, I just don’t know.

I felt the same way too.

“So now you see
Why I’m scared?
I cant open up my heart without a care
But here i go
Its what i feel
But for the first time in my life i know its real”

I don’t feel good